Wednesday, October 26, 2016

Day 26... Through the Lens of Grace

Day 26... Confront

Confront the truth
Confront the lies
Confront your fears
Confront your failures
Confront the facts
Confront the fact...

that He's already 

confronted and conquered

so that we can now daily

confront and conquer

"How This Christian Girl Finally Learned to Curse
(originally posted 3/31/15)

I am a 38 year-old Christian female...

who has just recently learned to curse

It's shocking, I know
as I can hardly believe it myself

and wonder...

How did I get here?


Why did it take so long?

I, like so many others
who were introduced to Christ as a child

learned to

read His Word

tell others about

His goodness
His plan
His provision

and live a life dedicated to His service

But my 23 years...
(on this side of the cross)

have also taught me

that this Christian walk


involves a fight!

Whether its...


we have to fight on every side


the flesh
the enemy
the world

because we're fighting the good fight of faith

And so as I recently


the passage of Scripture found here...

and as I really thought about...

my journey
my life
my experiences

and really thought about Christ...

His journey
His life
His experiences

and about how everything that He did
was for us

the words of Jesus penetrated my heart
and I realized that I was living far too passively


that not only
did I need to learn to confront that which is


in my life

I needed to be teaching my children this as well

(because after all, the best way to learn to curse is from your mother, right?)

And so without apology

I curse...


I curse...


and everything else
that tries to exalt itself above God
I curse...

laziness, ineffectiveness, bitterness

and any
and all

confusion attempting to manifest

in my life
in my mind
in me
I curse all...


that do not align with the Sovereign Will of God
because at the end of days His Will is the only thing that will stand

This Christian girl has finally learned to curse because

He lived
He died
He was buried
and when He rose again with all power
it reversed the curse

allowing for complete


so that now

regret or
I curse             

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Day 25... Through the Lens of Grace

Day 25: Sign

We want a sign
Pray for a sign
Ask for a sign

Yet refuse to open our eyes and see...
"Lord, Show Me a Sign"
(originally posted 3/4/14)

The campus was undergoing construction and I wasn't sure if I would know which way to go,
so I said a quick prayer before heading out...

"Lord, please make my path straight and show me a sign"

and when I arrived, I found parking being redirected
as several men waved large signs pointing to where I was now supposed to park

I smiled and pulled into the parking garage and found a spot

Volunteers in brightly colored vests were strategically placed along the path that led to the

conference registration
free continental breakfast
keynote address

A quick glance at the program indicated that each of my three workshops
would be held in Building T

I headed out of the gym and began walking and there it was

a sign showing me which way to go

"Lord, show me a sign", I had prayed and now this...

And the irony was not totally lost on me because
God has a sense of humor and I know it

T is also my nickname

and as I read
the sign

Building T, go right

I also read it as
for "building" T, go right!

Only if life were always this easy
(a sign with our name and an arrow pointing which way to go)

But God has left us a sign...

His message
His Word

The Holy Bible

which points us in the right direction

And when we open it and begin to read
He makes our pathway straight

So today if you're...

unsure of where you're going
unsure of how to navigate this confusing world

or if the place you've always known
is now under construction

take a moment


slow down
look to the sky
and pray for direction

Monday, October 24, 2016

Day 24... Through the Lens of Grace

Day 24: Global

I wonder what the world would truly look like
if grace

had gone global
"The Same Black Dress (Part 1)"
(originally posted 4/3/13)

This week my daughter and I are supporting Sheyenne's
"Dress For Change" fashion consumerism project.

The objective... to raise funds and global awareness for underprivileged girls in Africa
The challenge... to wear the same black dress for 7 days (with gratitude and grace)

So here's what we're wearing...

Day 1

Day 2

Click here to see the next 2 days...

 or here to see the week in review!

Sunday, October 23, 2016

Day 23... Through the Lens of Grace

Day 23- Blowout

Before you have a major blowout over this remember...

love is not about who you are willing to let fill your heart
but who you are willing to empty yours for

Saturday, October 22, 2016

Day 22... Through the Lens of Grace

Day 22: Off

The take off was
but I'm thankful for
a seatmate who talked me through it
a complete stranger
with a name that rhymed with mine
randomly selected
to remind me that with God
there are no coincidences
because He
where we are
and even with a shaky take-off
our faith in Him promises a
successful trip
safe landing

"Light Bulb Moment"
(originally posted 10/30/13)

I was in the 3rd grade and had realized my mistake almost as soon as I had made it

My class was doing a science experiment with mini light bulbs
and as we prepared for recess our teacher reminded us...

"Be careful with your light.  If you break it, you will not get another"

I heard him loud and clear
and was

determined to be responsible
focused on being responsible

until it was time to go outside and play
and I quickly forgot about responsibility

I set the tiny bulb down onto my desk
(and watched)

as it rolled in slow motion off of my desk and onto the floor,
shattering into pieces

My heart sank and I looked around to see if anyone had noticed, but everyone
was already heading out of the classroom so I picked up my shattered pieces
and dropped them into the waste basket on my way out of the room

I was so distraught that I couldn't even enjoy the recess that I had so anticipated
and it must have been written all over my face because my best friend looked at me and asked

"What's wrong?"

I told her everything, dramatically replaying the scene and expecting sympathy
But she wasn't moved

She just looked at me and said
"Tondra, it's Mr. Gagan... just ask for a new bulb"

As her words began to sink in, my fears melted

"Oh yeah", I remembered and wondered what I had been so worried about

After all I had

the best teacher
who held my best interest

and a best friend to remind me...

that he wouldn't get mad at me
he couldn't get mad at me

I was eight and had simply made a mistake

Once back in the classroom, I walked up to his desk taking a deep breath as I explained
"I'm sorry, I accidently dropped my light bulb"

He looked up at me, and in that defining moment, forever impacted

my life
my outlook
my future work with children

He simply handed me a new bulb with a smile and said "Be careful, okay?"

and that was it

No questions
No reprimands
No "I-told-you-so"

None of those things

Just a smile... and a provision

So again, I ask for God's grace to...

slow down
stay focused
pay attention

as I

with gratitude and grace
hold onto my little light


it's what I've got
and I know
that I will not get another

Friday, October 21, 2016

Day 21... Through the Lens of Grace

Day 21: Park

Do not park here
Do not loiter
Do not litter

Do not waste time just standing around looking

get up
do something
make a difference

Thursday, October 20, 2016

Day 20... Through the Lens of Grace

Day 20: Weekend

Homework graded
report typed
chores complete



and I will not bother him because...

this is weekend grace

"Hair Sessions... Life Lessons"
(originally posted 11/24/12)

I've been hearing her voice lately...

(which in itself is not totally uncommon because I've heard her voice my entire life) 

But lately however,
I've been hearing those things

that she said to me...
along with the things that she didn't say

I've just recently come to understand...

what she really meant when she spoke
what she really wanted me to know, but I was too young to understand
what she said that I didn't comprehend

I get it now.  She had a lot to say and we had the time.

I wonder if this is why girls have longer hair than boys

So that we have the time...

to sit
and listen
and learn

the lessons that we will carry into our lives as


Is this why my "early year hair sessions" were a weekend long production?

Friday night...


to dry overnight.

Saturday morning...


and braid into ponytails.

Sunday morning...


gladly showing the result of her handiwork.

I've been hearing her voice lately...

Friday night...

close your eyes
lean your head back
be still

Saturday morning...

hold your ear
be still

Sunday morning...

you look just like your father
move your hand

Now that I am a mother I realize that...

everything she did
everything she said

and even what she didn't say

laid the foundation for the moments that I am now living

And I've been hearing her voice lately...

"Stand on His Word"
"Trust God, He'll see you through"
"Be Anxious for nothing"

Friday night...

wash (live a clean life, and don't let the dirt get into your eyes)
detangle (sometimes life hurts... know when to fight, know when to surrender)
plait (learn how to hold it together)

to dry overnight.  (because some things just take time)

Saturday morning...

part (so learn how to separate yourself)
press (because some kinks only surrender to heat)
grease (and remember to let the oil of gladness saturate your mind)

and braid into ponytails. (then do what it takes to stay out of a tangled mess)

Sunday morning...

untie (which means you must know when to release and let go)
brush (because a good bristle has its proper place)
parade (but always let your walk show His goodness)

"One day I won't be around anymore to tell you these things"
"But you will hear my voice reminding you"
"And you're gon' miss me when I'm gone"

Friday night...

close your eyes (pray without ceasing)
lean your head back (then look to the hills for help)
be still (and you will see the salvation of the Lord)

Saturday morning...

hold your ear (you can't listen to everyone)
relax (trust in God)
be still (and stop trying to control everything)

Sunday morning...

you look just like your father (don't ever forget who you belong to)
move your hand (and let Him work it out)
BE STILL! (know that He is God!)

It's amazing what you can hear when you don't even realize that you are listening,

But I've been hearing her voice lately...

And I'm grateful for our many hair sessions, life lessons.

"Moriah, come have a seat." 

Lean your head back...
close your eyes....

just be still, child.

"Thanks Mom"

(Now it is my turn to teach the class)