Saturday, November 18, 2017

Not Flowers... He Brings Me Leaves

I wrote "Crunching Leaves" on November 15, 2013

The following morning this happened...

November 16, 2013

One single red leaf

hanging on

to the front of her car as she pulled into my driveway

and parked

and as
the tears started


(one at a time, at first, then in streams)

I had to give thanks
for how God

tells me
reminds me
shows me

every time
He brings leaves

(originally posted 11/16/13 at 8:26pm)

Sunday, November 5, 2017

Crunching Leaves (My Thanksgiving Repost)

We held hands
shared apple pie
and crunched leaves in the hospital courtyard

I believe that it was his way of letting me know it was ok


keep moving
keep living
keep enjoying the moments of life

even though we had to leave her there... again

Doctors were giving up
but 35 years later, and yet she lives

She lives
I live
we live...

all because He lives

This time of year always reminds me
(that just like those leaves)

we are still here for

a reason...
a season...

And as they start 

turning beautiful colors
falling off of trees
and blowing in the wind

they float to a soft landing where they wait for

that final crunch
that final "surrender"
that final "thank you"

Life is like that...

we grow
we mature
we change

and just as we are starting to get the hang of it
it is time for us to let go and sail away with the wind

That's what life and crunching leaves is all about...

understanding and acknowledging

the surrender
the process of dying out to bad habits and old ideas
the letting go of one's self and becoming selfless...

in preparation for that final crunch

We are always reminded of that during this time of year

And as life keeps changing

leaves keep


I am reminded that I am still here for a reason, a season

and so as they surrender,
so do I


I am grateful for...

another day
another chance
another opportunity to

hold hands
share apple pie
and crunch leaves

I'm So Thankful

(originally posted 11/15/13)

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Day 31... Grace Still Happens

And finally

the 7th day
the last day
the final day

God "created" rest

not because
He needed it

but because
we do
"God Created Rest"
(originally posted 10/11/15)

He spells it out for us...


and after six days of creating awesomeness
he chose rest

we spend our days chasing


(amongst mediocrity)

and are

too busy
too weary
too afraid

to find rest 

But man was created on the sixth day

and I'd like to think that God took rest on the seventh
(not because He was tired)


as an example
to spend time with
to enjoy

His creation as

He spells it out for us...


at the end of the week God created man, and rest, and
at the end of Jesus is "us" and our rest is found in Him

Monday, October 30, 2017

Day 30... Grace Still Happens

shine me
refine me
define me

don't deny me

as you make me whole


and true

forever faithfully yours
forever grateful too 
"The Refiner's Fire"
(originally posted 6/10/14)

We boarded the bus for our mini road trip

and before we departed

our docent

quoted Scripture
and read to us

this morning devotional...
Refiner's Fire
The silversmith holds the silver over the hottest part of the fire,
but he must sit and hold it, watching it carefully the entire time
If he leaves it in too long, it's ruined
If he doesn't leave it in long enough, it's worthless
And when asked how he knows when the silver is ready to be removed,
he simply replies...

I know it's ready when I can look at it and see my reflection

Can God see Himself in you?

Sunday, October 29, 2017

Day 29... Grace Still Happens

Pay attention... 

to both
who you follow

and to
who follows you
"First Follow Me"
(originally posted 10/4/15)

Dear People of the World,

I know that you are hurting

I see you
I hear you
I feel you

and I want to help


what I offer
you will not receive

what I've provided
you've rejected

So what more can I do?

I know that you are hurting

your lives
your media
your actions

are screaming...

look at me
hear me
acknowledge me

and I do

but in order for the pain

to actually stop
you must stop

and first


Saturday, October 28, 2017

Day 28... Grace Still Happens

make an effort to
connect with someone
in person today
"Just Go Outside"
(originally posted 7/6/15)

Some days we only had...

one bicycle
a pair of skates and
a JC Penny catalog

but we figured out how to make it work

because it was summertime
we were together
and there was no such thing as being "bored"

With one bicycle we could...

take turns

giving each other rides on the handlebars
pulling the other one wearing the pair of skates


chasing stray cats back down the alley

With a pair of skates we could...

share them

each wearing one while sporting a tennis shoe on the other foot to



Or we could always...

play jacks
jump rope
eat Captain Crunch
read magazines
act out scenes from our favorite movies
make up our own
chase down the ice cream truck
run through the sprinklers
wash the car
do cheers
make up drill team routines
look through each other's yearbook
talk about boys

and people watch

Then after all of that...

when we got


we could retreat

into my grandmother's house to eat fresh meatloaf sandwiches
into her mother's kitchen for bowls of chicken rice-a-roni
then back to my grandmother's for vanilla ice cream and butter cookies

Until finally...

plopping down into her father's rocking chair
opening her mother's JC Penny catalog across our laps
and playing "I got that"

But kids today don't know nothing about that

they'd rather

talk to "friends" on social media

instead of connecting with people who are actually in the same


with them

They'd rather

lay around
look around
complain of boredom

when all they need to do is get up and...

just go outside!

Friday, October 27, 2017

Day 27... Grace Still Happens (Perfect Together)


made biscuits from scratch

sifted the flour
cut in the shortening
hand kneaded the dough

let rest
and baked

until they were perfect

pulled out to cool before

real butter
grape jelly

made them perfect

they were perfect
she was perfect
we were perfect


And I wonder if she knew...

because the year she left us
was the same year I met


(almost as if she made room for him)

to sit at the table
sharing biscuits

made perfect

and I am overcome with emotion
as I have been blessed once again


this feels perfect
they are perfect
we are perfect


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