Let Him Flood Your House... (One Year Later)

I kneel here daily to pray

(and as I speak to Him)

I find peace

in the place 

that once offered only panic

And this time?  Today?

He speaks back

says...

open your eyes

look up

remember

And as I do, I am aware that it has been almost one year

in this very spot

where I am

kneeling

praying

that my ceiling landed on the floor

And it's almost as if I can feel Him saying...

Yes, that was hard, but look up.

You have things now that you didn't have then

And I open my eyes to see

fresh paint

recessed lighting

a new ceiling fan

and soggy carpet that has been replaced

with hardwood supporting my full weight

as I worship here on my knees

Then once again my house begins to flood

(only this time with tears)

because you can only know Him like this

if a house floods...

when a house floods...

So, my dear friends, I want

to encourage you to please

Let Him flood your house

because yes,

you will

worry

cry

question

wonder and experience

the most vulnerable moments of your life

you will come to know

both calamity and comfort

fear and faith

and perhaps you may even panic

(right before you remember to praise)

But then, and only then,

can you look up to discover...

that the things you have now are

even better

much better

way better

than the things that you had then

"Faded memories are better than no memories"

- my Momma