I had gone to the mall alone with my two babies...
one in pull-ups
one in diapers
one with a sippy-cup
one with a bottle
and strapped safely into their double-stroller
I had to use the bathroom...
and it could NOT wait until I got home
So I did what I had to do...
I pushed my double stroller into the restroom
entered the stall
pulled my sleeping babies in as close as possible
and proceeded to use the bathroom
...with the door wide open!
Complete strangers walked by, noticing, and no one said a word
I had never imagined that becoming a mother would change my perspective so much, but in that moment, my children's safety was more important than my pride
Mothers do what they have to do...
and several years later, as my cousin prepared for the birth of her first child
I remembered that day
and shared with her my thought,
that for mothers,
perhaps the real purpose of delivery
is to deliver you
from the burden of what other people
because once you're a parent, you can't let those things move you
stretches beyond recognition
just when you think you've had enough you must find new strength to
that which has grown
And so using the bathroom with the door open is brought into perspective, because after all,
Nobody gives birth fully clothed...
you have to first get naked!
Once to conceive
And in that very act
of getting naked
lies the vulnerability
that opens the door to intimacy
Our Lord showed us that as He allowed them to
as He willingly bore the shame
to deliver me
to rescue me
because in that moment my safety was more important than His pride
His act of
opened the door to our intimacy...
And when we fully realize this
we have no other choice but to come to Him
and allow our hearts to get naked before Him
knowing that He
sees it all
flaws and all
and loves us anyway
and has taken away all of that shame
decided to first